*OMGOSH my day slipped away*
Dec 8, 2018
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welcome to Friday and you know it's only
six o'clock in the afternoon or evening
you guys I am so sorry what is in my
pocket
do you ever think find random things in
your pockets and be like what is it Oh
finger up wouldn't ya know anyways yes
welcome to Friday you mean my labs I
obviously have not walked at all today
like I am not picked up my camera not
once today and go but
um sorry neighbors like sitting here I'm
gonna shut this off I don't know if you
guys know anyways so anyways I have not
picked up my camera today at I don't I
don't
I literally have been working on my
business since nine o'clock this morning
my tailbone is so sore from sitting all
day like literally all day I mean I
think I've gotten up to go pee and that
is a haven't even eaten today you guys I
eat breakfast at
like 9:30 10:00 and I haven't eaten
nothing since
oh excuse me I just had a bite enough to
have beef jerky I was like why am I
playing with my dude yeah I had a bite
of beef jerky that is it but I literally
have been working so hard today that I
did not seen all day like nothing
so I greatly greatly apologized to you
guys for it being like
like I really did not fill you guys in
with anything but there was nothing I
wasn't doing anything today like today
was just like you know all he was out he
went he went to prayer and then he had
some business stuff they had to take
care of and he went to lunch with a
friend no jealousy there and anyways but
me and the baby stayed home all day
Jeremiah went to school and then my mom
was supposed to come this afternoon
because she had some stuff to bring me
but she got going on the road and she
lives about in coward
and right when she got into Detroit
which is about about 10 to 15 minutes
from her town
it was pure black ice and so she called
me and she's like Amy and she only knows
one headlight because her head like the
other one keeps blowing out so she was
just like I don't know nothing is too
important for you to be driving a black
eye so don't worry about it
so she said that she wants to try and
come tomorrow
mid-afternoon so that will be nice
because she'll be able to see all the
kids cuz Jeremiah was gonna be in school
when she came but now she'll actually be
able to see everybody so that would be
nice but other than that
that was it I got up and cleaned the
bathroom because with my little Ezra
potty training and all yah now we a
little wrinkled wrinkles on the toilet
so every day every night I scrub the
bathroom like that's just every night
well excuse me let me rephrase I don't
scrub the bathroom every night but I do
wipe down the bathroom and then I you
know scrub the toilet and all of that
good stuff just to keep everything
sanitary but so I did that today I got
up and I cleaned out my bathroom oh and
then I had to clean my room in the
middle of me trying to do all my work my
business stuff because my two little
ones decided to find my craft box but I
was keeping them busy it wasn't doing
anything harm there was nothing that I
mean they weren't do anything that would
have hurt any of my stuff but they just
were playing with all my like you know
like my little buttons and trinkets and
bells and you name it they found
everything just to be so fun so that
kept them quite busy for quite some time
now after we were done I was like okay
it's cleanup time so you know I actually
did make both of them clean up the toys
are not the toy sorry
clean up the craft box that they made a
mess with and you know I wheezing our
clean up song and I made them
help you know I was like you guys want
to make the mess and that's fine you
guys can play with this if I don't have
a problem with it because this doesn't
have like any glue or any of my markers
or anything this is just seriously just
like trinkets like little things that I
put on like my race and things like that
so there's like so many little fun
things that they find like there was
like these little fairies that has
profound so she found herself some
princesses and stuff like that but and
that was really cute so I went ahead and
when they were cleaning everything up I
just told him you know that they just
needed to clean up their mess and put
everything away and they did really good
I was really I was really proud of him
and then I don't know if Ezra is coming
down with a UTI I don't know if that's
kind of normal or not especially with
potty trainers but she has been
complaining oops
she has been complaining all day long
that her pee-pee hurts so I looked down
there because I was just like I don't
know what I'm supposed to be looking for
because I don't know like if you can see
like irritation or not but it didn't
look really red or anything but of
course you know because she's just
learning to go to the bathroom on the
toilet and cleaning herself and stuff
that I just don't know if it has
anything to do with that
another thing is she took a bath the
other day and they put dial hand soap in
the bathtub for bubbles I had no idea
and so she was sitting in Dial bubble
soap for I don't know how long I'd say
about an hour
so I don't know I'm just gonna kind of
watch her she just acts like I mean if
she keeps crying at her pot he's hurting
her then I'll just take her either into
urgent care or I'll wait and call them
Monday and make her an appointment so
and then Omar decided to get a horrible
rash on his bottom so he has literally
been walking bowlegged everywhere he's
walking because he is so raw and I just
told him I'm like this is why we need to
be potty training but you know he's
still fighting us so oh but Ezra is 100%
potty trained you guys 100% she hasn't
even woken up with a clean diaper like a
dry diaper for the last five days she's
only woken up one night with a wet
diaper other than that she has had dry
diapers every night I'm just like yeah
so and she just takes herself to the
bathroom cleans herself up does her own
thing
she even shuts the bathroom door it's
really nice I'm just like you know if
your brother would just jump on board
that would be nice so anyways I am here
Walgreens again tonight I got some more
pictures developed I did come up with a
business name you guys and I will be
revealing it here soon I'm so excited
but anyways I'm gonna go and really
quick to pick up my pictures
I told Holly I would do this quickly
because he is making soup at home for me
and the babies so I will check in with
you guys as soon as I get back in from
the store oh my gosh okay I'm back
I feel like forever being in there I
wasn't I'm excited to see how the
pictures turned out I didn't check them
I didn't see him but I never have a
problem with Walgreens so so I never
really check them both let's just
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anyways so now I am gonna go home wait
for my dinner to get done it's already
seven o'clock so I need to take a shower
I have not showered today you guys I am
a stinky but I have not taken a shower I
never do this but my mind was focused
that's dangerous to take a meal for the
focus before a train because I once I
get focused and I get aimed on what I'm
doing turn back anyways like so we're
just coming together though just just
getting my price book together is making
me feel so much more like a piece that
that is a big piece of
this whole thing you know is getting my
prices and making sure that those are
you know eligible to you know the price
checks for you know all around and
that's what should be the longest I
think was just like you know because you
have to you have to be on track with
everybody else's prices like you can't
come in with a lowball first of all
that's not fair and you don't want to
come in with a high amount because you
know we are talking competition with a
business like this so in that return you
have to be spot-on but you don't want to
lower yourself to price out somebody
else so that's kind of what I was doing
today was just a lot of math mathematics
in my head is just spinning I actually
had a take I need Provo earlier reason I
had the worst headache from price
checking I had just was like you know
sheer after you do a lot of math that
you don't touch when you are not in high
school or school so yeah but it was all
good and it's been good I'm so excited
to like just be able to finally show you
guys like the ins and outs you know
because you guys get to see the behind
scenes of my business which is really
exciting because you guys will be right
along with me
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when eels like I said they're just
really was nothing exciting today for
you guys a lot of work for me a lot of
excitement for me to get done with but I
mean I still I still do have a lot stuff
to do though that's the thing is like I
still have a lot to do but I'm making
progress I am making progress and that's
all that counts so Indy ways I hope you
guys had a wonderful Friday I really
really do it was really nice here again
today it just sprinkled for a few
seconds just now but it hasn't rained or
not any wind nothing but it is 41
degrees now and it was fairly chilly
most of the day I have the heater on
often the one today in the house just to
keep me in the kids here but really it
was a really beautiful day and tomorrow
night I'm not mistaken I think tomorrow
supposed to be a really nice day again
was no rain cold but no rain I can
handle the cold I just can't handle the
rain so I don't know what well I do know
tomorrow
I have no idea if we're gonna do
anything in the morning tomorrow is
waiting day I did do a Midway in this
week just because I was kind of a little
bit concerned because of auntie Flo
coming and me just feeling kind of just
overall just a little bit blah and so I
did do a mid weigh-in this week and it
actually said I was up a pound so I'm
hoping that tomorrow I get on the scale
and at least at least either break even
again this week or go down I don't want
to go up but if I go up I go up like
it's
you know this is just this is my
progress this is my process you know I
had a comment I think it was yesterday
if I could be wrong but I think it was
yesterday that she was suggesting for me
to try and do meaty meat
I can't even say right men the fasting
thing intermediate fasting and she
suggested you know that I eat one big
mil with like six eggs and a whole bunch
of stuff for 8/8 or I don't know
something in that realm but here's the
thing which I appreciate all suggestions
like I told you guys that from the
get-go I do not mind you guys adjusting
to me sharing with me you know I totally
have no issue with that whatsoever like
I don't take that offensively
nothing like never but I did reply back
that um I've heard a lot of good things
about it you know but for me personally
I don't feel that that would I don't
think that that would benefit me
personally and the only reason why is
because I'm doing this to change my
entire lifestyle learning how to have
healthy relationships with food and
hilling past trauma of eating disorder
and our eating disorders and things like
that so for me personally I don't feel
that I would benefit off of doing
intermediate fasting because I think
that in the long run that would probably
set me back
this is all a life change for me this is
something that I will continue for the
rest of my life
and that's why I've said before that I
don't stop myself from having certain
things like I don't stop myself from
having pasta I don't stop myself from
having sugar I don't stop myself from
having food of any type carbs I don't
stop myself like that's that would
that's not the point of why I'm doing
this weight loss I'm not doing this to
punish myself I'm not doing this to put
boundaries or conditions I'm not doing
any of that for on my what I'm doing
because in the long run like I've said
before this is something I will
substained for the rest of my life and
intermediate fasting I don't see that
being something that people do for a
lifetime maybe they do maybe I'm wrong
and I could be wrong correct me if I am
but I don't think that that is something
that people can do for the rest of their
life just like somebody that says I'm
zero carb well you can't tell me for the
rest of your life that you're gonna 100%
cut carbs because even if you were to
say I'm going to cut carbs for the next
six months and then we'll gradually add
it back to my diet
within those six months those things
back to your diet your body no matter
what we'll go through a gain a weight
game no matter what because it's been
without it for six months there's no
reason to not allow yourself to have
carbs sugar there's no reason not to you
can have them but the problem is is you
have to learn what is moderation for you
what will work for you for me I know in
the mornings I have two pieces of toast
with a little bit of butter and a little
bit of jam on it that is what I have for
breakfast prior to me having to my
journey start I would have anywhere from
four to six pieces of toast you guys
with butter and jelly on it or jam or
whatever now I only have two two and
that will substantive L so this morning
no no no this morning I had I had one
egg one scrambled egg and four little
slices of turkey spam that's what I had
for breakfast and I haven't eaten again
since yes you can say that would be
called intermediate Palestine that is
just called not being smart because I
should have had something in between
that for a meal but I was so preoccupied
with my working that I completely forgot
to eat but to set out to make that be
something that I do every day for a diet
again we're not doing a diet on my
channel I'm not doing a diet I don't
believe in the word diet I don't believe
that it works that's my opinion
everybody else has their opinion
everybody else is welcome to have their
opinion but for me I don't feel diets
work they're not sustainable and diet
means temporary it's not something that
can be withstood for a lifetime so as
much as I appreciated that comment and I
you know again every comment is welcomed
I have to answer that as
I don't see that being something that I
would personally take on something I
would put into my lifestyle because I
just don't think that it is something
that I honestly know would work for me I
think that that would make me actually
go back to my Bend Jean I think it would
reverse my wills honestly I think that's
honestly what would happen is I would
reverse back rather than going forward
and what I'm doing now I have seen
myself going forward I can see myself in
circumstances and situations you know
just like the other night when we went
to Mexican food rather than eating my
entire mill I actually brought home over
half of my mill and I only had just a
few chips and I was totally satisfied
but had I ended intermediate or in
whatever that's called all these new
tangos for our lingos or Legos or now
you guys are all gonna correct me just
like I said the food before a Fupa Fupa
yeah anyways language if I would have
done that fasting thing I would have
been been Jean because I would have
thought that ball I would have known
that that would have been my only meal
and to me I don't feel that that's a
healthy way of dieting my personal
opinion again so for me I would never
ever promote intermediate fasting and
media however you say y'all know what
I'm talking about so anyways that's my
that's my two cents for the day biker
babe but anyways I am going to go into
the house you guys at a 7/10 I need to
call him clean up my mess in my room
because it is full of just myself
scattered everywhere for my business
stuff I've got it all I have a box now
that I'm gonna just start putting
everything in nicely and that way then I
can kind of carry it around with me
everywhere but I am so excited to show
you guys everything that I have
accomplished within the last couple
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so yeah and then I'm gonna go and jump
at the shower have me some nice warm hot
soup and then put the babies to bed
because espera is exhausted she wanted
to go to bed at 6:30 and I was like oh
no girlfriend you are not going to bed
this time because you will be up all
night long and I'm mama tired so anyways
I apologize you guys for today's vlog I
know it's just kind of been a fuii one
but I promise tomorrow should be a
better day and hopefully I will be able
to do something fun with you guys so
anyways I hope you enjoyed and I will
check in with you guys tomorrow at some
given fun time until then sweet dreams
you guys but bye
